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The Single Question That Can Change Your Destiny

June 5, 2005 on 5:34 pm | In Abundance | 18 Comments

Quo Vadis?

It means: “Where are you going?”, in Latin.

Also a title of a good movie, that made me think of writing this
to you:

Doesn’t it sometimes feel, like you’re always trying to do
something, to say something, to NOT do or say something… in
order to get somewhere?

But where is somewhere?

It certainly has felt like that for most of my life, until it got
to a point where I realized I really didn’t know where I was
going.

By the time I was 19, I was making almost $100,000/year in income,
certainly more than what most 19 year-olds make, at least at the
time. For the longest period of my “success” this was my biggest focus.

I thought, like a lot of teen-ages, that when I finally reached a certain
income, I would be “successful”

Complete. Finished. Fulfilled.

But I wasn’t.

The more money I made, the bigger the gap in my heart became from
where I was and where I thought I needed to be, to FINALLY be
happy.

The more direction I got towards my goals, the longer the moments lasted.
Those moments where you’re working in seeming “passion” and then
the empty feeling suddenly dawns on you.

It dawns you that you have no clue what the hell you’re
doing with your life, even though you’ve fought so hard, for so
long, to prove to yourself and others that you do know where you
are.

But you don’t, you are lost.

I was lost.

The feeling was like a dark hole in my stomach, tugging at my heart,
trying toget it’s attention.

LISTEN TO ME! It was yelling. All day, all night, in my sleep,
and in the shallow and dull dreams of my mind.

But I didn’t listen,… and time passed.

A year later, all of a sudden I finally found myself sitting in
my room again, moving papers around on my desk, deciding,
on a new “goal” - then it came at me again. It hit me like a slap
on the face by a woman in rage.

Here I was now again, married, talking about having kids and a
bigger house with my fiancée, who was to be my wife in just 4
months. Still my heart felt empty. I was a man in my head, but a
child at heart, unable to open.

I sat there staring the wall, thinking, completely empty.

…”What is this feeling I’m after so much? This feeling that
I’m trapped in, that so many other men and women chase their
entire lives?”

This need to complete, achieve, and “prove” something to myself?

The answer came through me, and it is why I’m writing this to you
today,

We’re all going to the same place. To love.

No, not the love between two people, between a person and a cat,
or a mother to a child.

The love that is around you right now, even this very second.

Human beings spend their entire lives chasing love, more often
unconsciously… But that’s what we’re really after.

And the truth is…? There is no goal large enough that you
could attain to get you there. And no deed horrible enough to
stop you from getting there.

Because love is not a mountain to be achieved, or a hell you need
to avoid to get there.

When you find it, it is so obvious, but most of us are blind to
it.

So we chase our goals and find other ways to find love. At least
I did. Deep in my heart I knew there was more, and chasing my
goals was a way to try to get there, because I felt that whatever
I was after I was too far at that moment to touch.

We all feel like love is there, but we believe it’s untouchable
in the present moment.

So we tune out, and box ourselves away from the world
Either by watching the “box”, chasing goals, or a dose of Prozac
twice a day.

Don’t get me wrong.

Goals and direction in life are very important to have, so is
material possession. Material possession and wealth are simply a
reflection of the love and abundance in your heart. It’s chasing
the equation backwards(trying to get to love by filling your life
with lots of “stuff”), that doesn’t work.

And yes, when I turn the ignition on my brand new Ferrari later
this year I will love every second of it.

But that alone will never feel complete, it will never fill the
void in my own, or anyone’s heart.

The feeling of “completion” or “safety” in life is an illusion,
the only thing that will ever get you to the feeling which you’re
truly after, is opening to love.

It’s that feeling of openness and heart-felt surrender that we’re
really after. We have a choice to open to it, and let it bring
everything in our lives to an abundant fruition – OR…

Stuff it down all your life with anger, regret, depression, long
enough that it will kill you with disease.

Only once you truly open your heart, will perusing goals and
achieving them feel fulfilling. Because they’ll be coming from
your heart, not from your head.

And the truth is, You don’t need to go on a quest to find Love.

Be it God, Allah, Jesus, Jehovah, Allah, Buddha, whatever you want
to call Him or Her.

You don’t need to FIND the path to Him or Her.

Why?

Because it’s never been lost.

He/She, has never been lost.

Love has never been lost.

The Truth has never been lost.

It’s right there inside and all around of you, even this moment.

There is no path you can venture on, or goal you can attain that
will get you there.

Devine love is not waiting for you at the finish line, or on top
of a mountain. It’s in every particle around you, tugging at
your heart your entire life. Just waiting to be listened to.

Love, God, and The Universe is everywhere, unraveling and opening
at your feet in every single moment.

So many people complain that they want a message, or some
guidance in life from whatever higher force they believe in.

The funny thing is, he/she/it is talking to you every second.
You just have to soften the endless chatter of your fearful mind,
and listen.

So the next time you find yourself lost in your desire for
completion in life, lost in the feeling of constantly trying to
get somewhere. Ask yourself: “Where am I really going?”

“What am I really trying to feel?”

If you look deep enough, you will find you only want to feel
love, and that you only want to give love.

Close your eyes and realize that even this very second, you are
surrounded by love. Every object around you, every particle is
part of the same stuff you’re made of. Every living thing is
connected to you. We’re one big family.

From that place in your heart, go forward in life, set goals,
make children, and give your heart impeccably to the world.

Never be afraid to give too much, there is no such thing.

Your life here, like mine, is a blink of an eye, a flash of
lightening rolling down the mountain of eternity.

In the end it won’t matter if you changed diapers, or if you
changed the world – only how much love you gave, and how much
love you opened to receive.

Yours to Love and Health,

Kacper

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